All Of My Dwelling Days by Jeremy Thomas Holt

All Of My Dwelling Days by Jeremy Thomas Holt

All of my dwelling days I still think about you

Many days have come and gone leaving us in ruins.

It felt so real in my heart like it was meant to be

I hoped that you would feel the same way about me

But I never thought I’d be told that you were not interested

Everything seemed to come crashing down around me

All my dreams and all my hopes were gone

Before I could do anything to make things right It was over

Now we can’t even look at each other in the same way we used to

I feel that we are both to embarrassed and frustrated with each other to say anything

I have been trying to figure out what I can do to make things right

But now I realize I have done all I know I can do and that I can only pray for you

Because only God can restore the friendship we had and that I took for granted

I felt in my heart that It’s time to lose the hate and bring back in the love

The love that lead us to our friendship in the beginning

I feel It’s time to forgive each other for the things that happened

What we had was so very real that it could only come from God

It may not seem like it but I haven’t stopped thinking of you as my friend

I have always cared about you even if it seemed like I didn’t

I may not have been the friend you wanted but I tried my best

Yes I did make mistakes and did some rather uncomfortable things

But all I ever wanted was just for you to come talk to me

I couldn’t understand why it seemed like you suddenly couldn’t talk to me about anything

I felt that couldn’t come to you and say that I am sorry anymore because it felt beyond that

I have always felt like God wanted me to be there for you by your side when you needed me

I feel like I have failed both God and you in doing that.

All of the days I’ve had to sit bye and watch you going through things and not being able to be there for you as your friend hurt so bad.

I’ve always blamed myself for it all because I was so full of guilt and shame.

But now today I understand things better than before

I experienced a lot of things that have changed me and made me a better person.

I understand if we can’t be friends Anymore in fact I’ve already begun to move on with my life.

I will always be thinking of you and praying for you that’s all I know to do.

I put my faith in God and I trust Him above all else.

Here now I conclude this story and in Jesus Name amen!