When You Feel Like A Failure By Jeremy T. Holt

When you feel Like Failure

by Jeremy T. Holt

The following words are inspired by recent events that have occurred in my life and the lessons I have learned over the last few months. It comes from my heart but also from God up above.

When you feel like a failure. When you feel like you've messed up and your blaming yourself for everything that happened. When you're beating yourself up because you feel like your not worth it to some people. When you feel like giving up and throwing everything away, everything that reminds of what you wanted, of what you did, and of the mistake you feel you made. You try to hide from it all, to hide it all away. But the truth is that you know you can't hide from it. You know in your heart that you cant run from it, that you cant let go. You’re heart aches of self pity, sadness, frustration, and anger. Everything feels ruined, broken, and destroyed. Like it will never be the same again. You want to give up and throw it all away but you know you can't because it makes you feel weak, embarrassed, and ashamed. You find yourself in a very dark place alone and scared. But then you hear someone call your name. He says to you “what are you doing?” He tells you its not over yet, that this is just the beginning. He tells you to stand back up and to trust in Him. He says you gotta keep going. You can't stop here, its not time yet. He says I’ve told what I require you to do and I still require it from you. He says I know this hard for you but you stop now and you cant stay here like this. You need to keep on going because I have a plan. He says do what I require of you and be patient and your patience will be rewarded and you will be blessed beyond measure. He tells you that you’re doing great already but you can do so much better. He says you are strong you are in your faith but you can be stronger even than this. The one you hear telling you these things His Name is Jesus Christ. He is the reason I'm writing these words today. He is giving me my strength in light of recent events. He found me when I was struggling in the darkness and led me back to the light. Yesterday I did something, I told my friend the truth, about how I felt about her. I feel like I made a mistake and I messed everything up between me and her. I feel like I can't forgive myself. I was a mess, I tried to hide from everything, from all of it. I tried to hide everything that reminded me of the whole situation because I was so mad at myself. Now I don't know if we'll ever be friends again. But hiding from it all, from everything that didn’t last very long. Because God spoke to me and He said to me “what are you doing? Get up and do what you know I require from so that I may fulfill my plans for you.” So I stood back up and I asked God for His forgiveness. Because I did what I wanted to do instead of what He wanted me to do. I know that in my heart He has forgiven me and that there is nothing more I can do in this situation. My job here is done. The only who can do anything in this situation now is God. I have chosen to embrace God's ways and trust in Him now and always. The reason I am writing this is because I want everyone to know that when you're in a similar situation you can do the same. You can stand back up and keep going. I will be very hard and it definitely wont be easy but God's way is the only way the best way. All you have to do is trust in Him and He will amaze you and bless you more than you deserve. Let us be filled with His glory and be blessed by His Good Grace. In Jesus name I conclude Amen.