My Farewell and Final Story “The Resistance By Jeremy Thomas Holt

  Hi readers I coming to you today to say Goodbye and share one final story with you. I’ve decided that it is time for me to move on fro, writing. I’ve gotten into photography now so if you want to follow my adventures with photography you can follow on Instagram @jediphotographer_jeremythomasholt or on Facebook just search my name Jeremy Thomas Holt. Thank you for all your support. 

The Resistance By Jeremy Thomas Holt 

As I come to the end of my journey of writing I’ve decided to share the full story of what I went through while facing resistance back in 2018. It’s been along journey filled with so many lessons. It all started when I met a girl named Kelly. I fell in love immediately and wanted more than I was ever going to get from her. You see she didn’t feel the same way about that I once did her. We had issues in our friendship and quickly things fell apart. I kept trying all by myself to get her to like me to no avail. I didn’t let God help me either when I should have. One day back in march 2018 she stopped texting me out of no where no explanation. At first I would send a few texts a day just wanting to know if she was okay and what was wrong or if I did anything wrong to upset her. But she didn’t answer and slowly the days turned into weeks and the weeks into months. I started texting her more and more each day because I wanted to here from her. I even began asking others if she had said anything about it. I was worried, scared, angry, stressed, frustrated, and I felt like id be used and left hanging. Things went even further down hill after that to a point where I had several break downs and cried. The devil was using my emotions against me. He used my anger, frustration, stress, worry, love, compassion, and my fears all against me. It was like I was being beat up and I couldn’t defend myself. I couldn’t spiritually see straight, think straight or stand up. I felt paralyzed or stuck in place. All this resistance was building up around me as I continued to do blindly things on my own with out Gods help under the devils influence. I loved a girl but she didn’t love me back and I wouldn’t accept that she wasn’t interested. I was in a terrible scary dark place. I could feel the devil laughing at me, taunting me, and scratching me. I even felt like God wasn’t there like He had abandoned me even though I knew hadn’t.  I made quite a few mistakes and even ended up being talked to by my boss. Although was so upset with her I was willing to forgive her and that was when I started my journey back to God. I followed the light of God in my heart even though I didn’t realize it at the time. Eventually Kelly and I spoke and she apologized and hoped id still be her friend. After that we grew distant and didn’t speak for months. During that time I was sitting on my bed one day in tears talking to God. While I was talking to Him I felt that my body was weak and shaking and that was tired. I was telling God that I think I finally understood that he had sent Kelly to be a lesson in my life and that I made quite a few mistakes but that lessons I was about begin to learn were going to outweigh those mistakes. While I continued talking to God I felt His Presence overwhelm my weak and tired body. I knew it was God’s presence because It was powerfully strong. The strongest presence I have ever felt. I felt a love, a compassion, an understanding, a respect, an appreciation, a guidance that I couldn’t even begin to understand.  and my weak and shaky body suddenly felt so strong in a way it had never felt before. But most importantly I felt like I was home and that I was safe. Then I felt God move in my heart and I felt Him speak to me. I felt Him say “Jeremy My son come to me and I will give you rest.” And that when I realized that light I had been seeing coming from in my Heart was the Light of God and that He had been there with me all the time.  When I was trapped in the darkness I felt like I couldn’t see but what was right in front of me but when God came to me and I saw His light for what it truly was my spiritual vision was opened up again and everything became clear. I no longer felt the Devils presence but I still Felt God’s almighty presence. Even though it seemed like the light was flooding in and the darkness was fading quickly I understood that it wasn’t. This led me to coin the following phrase for my poem ‘The Light Will Rise.” And it goes like this “The Light will rise and the darkness will drown like a ship sinking in water.” From there I wrote my poem “The Light Will Rise.” Based on my journey through the resistance and the light and darkness. You see I faced so much resistance in this event in my life that nearly stopped me from moving forward in life and in God’s plans for me. The resistance I face was my own emotions being used against me. I nearly gave in and gave up but before I did I cried out to God and he saved me. Ever since then I learn and realize new things ever day about what I went through back in 2018 like the fact that I was doing everything on my own and not looking to God for help, or that God never left me, or that sometimes people come and go in our lives and are meant to be lessons and examples, or that resistance isn’t always a bad thing because you can learn from your resistance. Ive become a better person today because I have learned those lessons. Also more resistance I faced and still face are my insecurities like, I really like someone but Im scared to tell them our talk to them, I feel like no girl will ever like me, I feel like I will always be alone, I feel like I will mess up every time, I feel like every girl my age that I meet is already taken and every girl I meet that is single is significantly younger than me and so many more things like this. These things may hold me back but this time I a determined to pray to God and lift up to Him every thought, desire, insecurity, and things and leave it in His hands and allow Him to Guide me where am I supposed to be and guide me to who I am supposed be with. We can over come resistance firstly by praying as I just said. Secondly we can overcome resistance by believing in Gods promises. If we believe in His promises and we pray unceasingly and we trust  in Him He will bring us to our break through moment. Sometimes He doesn’t give your breakthrough moment right away because He knowns we need to learn quite a few things first before He gives our breakthrough and our rewards for Trusting in Him. Recently we have been attending a church called Inspire Church and Pastor Kevin Griggs has been preaching a series called “Movement” all about resistance and that was what inspire me to write this story today. Because His sermons on resistance helped me learn even more about what I went through and still going through today. I pray that God leads you through your resistance and brings you to your break through. God Bless You All and thank you for reading my poems and short Stories over the years I have been writing. I am now a Photographer and video recording guy who enjoys God’s creation and His Creatures. Feel free to give me a follow on instagram @jediphotographer_jeremythomasholt or on Facebook just search my name Jeremy Thomas Holt. 

In Jesus Name Amen.