I Choose To Trust by Jeremy Thomas Holt

I Choose To Trust

By Jeremy Thomas Holt

I Choose To Trust, to trust In God my savior. Are you having trouble with trusting in God and trusting in others in your life then Let me tell you the story of why I Choose To Trust In God and maybe it might help you understand better how to trust God and others.

I may have a million questions and my doubt may be obvious. I may have times where I don’t understand why certain things happen in life or why things I want don’t happen in life. My Faith in You gets tested greatly all the time and sometimes I feel like I have lost my way. Sometimes I don’t know what to do or where to go. It would always feel like I’m all alone. But you showed me recently that You have always been there. You came to me as I sat in my hot bath and You spoke to me and You said to me “Jeremy you are not alone, I am Here with You.” The vision You gave me of me sitting on boat in the blue ocean water with a pretty sunset in the sky felt to me as if I was alone but I didn’t feel alone because I felt Your presence in my heart and I knew I wasn’t alone. I’ve begun to understand that the times I’ve had doubt, the times where I felt lost, the times I was asking all of these different questions, and the times where I felt alone that though You seemed quite like you weren’t that You were there but you were working on me and teaching me how to trust You. Even though some things seem impossible to my human understanding doesn’t mean they are impossible to Your understanding. That is something else I believe You’ve been trying to teach me for a long time. Trust and things seeming impossible are the two things I struggle with the most everyday. Especially after some of the things I’ve endured over last year or so that have caused me to have moments of feeling lost, hopeless, doubtful, unable to trust people, and so much confusion and misunderstanding. I remember when I felt like I was a failure because of the things that I did and things I caused to happen. In fact I even wrote a short story about it called “When You Feel Like A Failure.” But through everything that happened I learned that You have always been there with me in my heart and that You haven’t and will never leave me. It took me a long time to find the Light in my heart but when I did it gave me an important understanding of your trust and also inspired my poem “The Light Will Rise.” Not only am I learning many new things but I am also changing as a person. Which brings me to today the decision I made because despite all that’s happened, all my doubt, all my questions, and everything else. I choose to trust, to trust in God, to trust in His plans, to trust He knows what’s best for me, and finally to trust in people that God places in my life even when it seems almost impossible to trust them. I believe that everyone I know is in my life for a reason and God wouldn’t put them there if they couldn’t be trusted. God trusts them and so do I. I Choose To Trust! In Jesus Name Amen.